Apathy

I am apathetic (no big surprise - that's not the revelation)
so, I'm sitting here, reading cases and wondering why I am apathetic - why I don't care about writing this damn paper. The deadline is looming and I still can't care enough to actually write the damn paper.
My theory is that I don't care, because I don't have any hope that even if I do write the paper, that I will get a decent grade on it.
My apathy is the result of hopelessness. Hopelessness that even if I do try, it won't do me any good.
So, the next question is, where do I find hope? Hope, that maybe, someday, I will be good at this shit. That is the question.