I still don't know if anyone (other than Catherine) actually reads this blog. I should advertise - cause I really enjoy my random rants and raves..... hm, narcissistic?
anyway, It is a new year and as of 9 am the beginning of a new era. IT promises to either be the new heaven and the new earth or the slippery slope to hell depending on who I choose to listen to. Most likely it will be an era with a President who has hard decisions to make and makes the right choice about 50% of the timeand hopefully things don't get too much worse because I don't want to hear the whining.
People frequently ask, so, how was your Christmas? Then the debate - do I tell them that it was shitty, or do I say - great, how was yours? Unfortunately, more and more, honesty and bluntness wins out and my polite tactful self retreats further and further into the darkness. It kinda sucked. My brother was being a jackass(code word for unfortunate soul caught between two very strong personalities). My grandpa was in the hospital with pneumonia the whole time (and is still). I was exhausted the entire time. and it snowed every other day, which would normally make me happy, but this time, meant I couldn't leave without feeling guilty for making my mommy abandoned at home. Ironically, as soon as I got back to Moscow, I was cheerful and felt well-rested. Um, where did that come from? then I went home for Grandma Boatman's funeral. She wasn't my grandma, but she let me into her family as if I was. She had an infectious smile and a joy and peace about her that made everyone feel at home. Then she got sick and God took her home at 67. I bawled and bawled at the funeral - not before, not after. Just then. Thank goodness for Michelle having tissues.
Now I am depressed and unmotivated again. my mind is full of obligations and schedules and dates that have no basis in reality which means I will miss most of it. Hopefully, I wake up soon. This could be a really great semester :)
The Frozen fog is beautiful and the sky in Moscow is grey, but the sun has been nice. I think I'll keep going and try to get all my homework done so I don't dread going to class for the rest of the week.
Cheers!
